Sunday, June 16, 2013

Stretching my mind and my heart

I sit down at the piano.
My fingers begin to wander over the keys, pressing, releasing,
testing the waters,
apprehensive, but eager.
My mind fritters over the pages, wondering, scared.
Can I even begin?
I take a deep breath, and begin to play.
I am captured.
The music has overwhelmed me, drowned me, carried me away,
and I am prisoner,
though I would have it no other way.
As the music continues my mind wanders,
but never strays,
held by the music
lost in its spell.
My mind stretches and smiles
my heart laughs along with the melody,
enthralled by the magic.
And it's like dancing
and singing
and love
and war
all
rolled into
one.

91 comments:

  1. Boy, that's so awesome. Why didn't i come up with that? :)

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    1. Because I'm so awesome I outshine you in every way ;)

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  2. I'm too far above you to even respond to that. :)

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  3. Kenzi, you really need to understand Heidi's supremity. ;)

    Me

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  4. And Heidi really needs to understand Kenzi's supremacy. I exert the age factor for the first time. :)

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  5. I see. I shall withdraw my case against your wisdom. Do understand that "supremity" is most certainly not my word; I should never resort to thinking up words in order to intimidate others. ;^)

    -Me

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  6. Good, you finally realized it. :)I know, I was wondering about that. Where did you get that word if it wasn't yours? I was like...wait, is that a word? I should hope that you would never stoop so low. :)

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  7. Wow, y'all must really love me ;)

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  8. Who is ya'll? I maintain that i am one person..though it may often appear otherwise. :) I officially told the Illinois, Ohio and Indiana kids that they have no business saying ya'll. They were like, "i so wish that we said that!" and i was thinking "don't you just?"

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  9. Oh we love you all right, Heidi, that's why we want to train you out of your low habits. :)

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  10. No, Kenz, I wouldn't stoop so low, though CERTAIN OTHER PEOPLE would.;)

    Me

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  11. What? You yourself were the one who accused yourself of making up a word! This doesn't even make any sense. Besides, the word i used was perfectly legal. Sumpremacy is totally a word. I'm so confused as to what we're talking about. :)

    And of course if i love you i would want to train you out of your low habits. :) Remember, "a true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down." (Arnold H. Glasow)

    So...what are we talking about, again?

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  12. Okay some of that was me Clara. I just don't got a google account. I made the good comments. Comments 4, 6, 10, and 11. ;)

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  13. And (still Clara) "sumpremacy" is not totally a word.

    ~Clara

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  14. Now it makes sense! Sorry, Heidi. :)

    That time i spelled it wrong. But the first time i wrote it (in comment 5, i think) it was "supremacy", and that is so a word, it's in the dictionary, genius.

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  15. Yeah...can't talk her into getting her own account...one day I'll actually log out of the site and see how she likes it ;)

    Cis, what are you talking about...supremacy is a word...the inside joke is about my mistakenly using "supremity"...

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  16. I'm still confused. Yeah, she'd better get her own, because right now i'm not even sure which of you used the word supremity. And since when is it an inside joke? I was in on it and i don't even know who was making it. I'm not sure who is responding to me anymore...for all i know i could be yelling at Cinderella on that other post...:)

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  17. Heidi! HEIDI used supremity! I am a brilliant genius, like I said, and would never use such a ridiculous twisting of a perfectly good word. It's an inside joke since HEIDI used it in trying to say how smart she was. Burn.
    Kenzi you were probably yelling at me. Mostly if someone's yelling, it's at me. ;^)
    Heidi, dearest, don't hurt yourself. Let's take this slow. Supremacy is a word. Supremity is not. Neither is Sumpremacy, which a darling little badly influential friend of yours used in Comment 12, I believe. ;) Sorry Kenz.
    I see a problem in your two dear little vocabularies, children. I can help. Listen to this advice.
    GO READ A DICTIONARY. If not,
    GO BACK TO ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. Do you feel helped or changed? :0)

    ~Cinderella, The Princess of the World.

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  18. Understood. Now who is yelling? And i have a feeling that it is actually Hidid whom i was yelling at on the other post, because she is the only one who doesn't respond. :) Sidenote to Heidi: RESPOND, WOMAN!

    Now that we have that out of the way, spumpremacy was an accidental typing error. I don't believe that i should be blamed.

    I was changed the moment i met you. :)

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  19. Who's Hidid, may I ask?
    Kenz, sumpremacy isn't a word, but spumpremacy ain't either.Calm yourself, lady. Let's go back to Typing, Page 1.
    Maybe Hidid is a mysterious new character who entered the blog! Are we both talking to him? Do tell.
    You're not blamed. Only HIGHLY criticized. :0) No, just kidding.

    You were changed the moment you met me?:) When was that? I saw Andrew before I saw you, because he was always shooting baskets during Spark's Game Time. Didn't know who he was, though, so I'm not sure that counts.

    Signed, Cinderella, Lady Who Actually HAS A Fairy Godmother Though So Many Others Don't.

    (Matilda, It was not so easy as it sounds.)

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  20. Yeah, Heidi you Oughta respond. You, my dear, have only made three comments out of twenty one!

    ~Cinderella

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  21. I swear, my computer changes what i type. I even checked last night to make sure that i had spelled "sumpremacy" correctly. Oh, so you're going to teach me how to type? Miss One-Word-A-Minute? Right. :) And there is no way that i spelled Heidi's name that wrong and didn't notice it. Your blog has a conspiracy against me.

    Tell her that, not me! She can no longer use the "i'm busy" excuse. I'M AT COLLEGE AND I STILL RESPOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  22. So now we're using excuses. Silly typing excuses. They don't become you, Kenzi.;)
    Besides I type a lot faster now, and doesn't slow and steady win the race?

    My blog has got a conspiracy? Touching, Kenz, touching. I'm sorry for you. You have my pity.

    Tell her what? Would you clarify? I didn't tell you nothin. :O)

    You may be at college, but you yourself told me that you don't yet have the full college schedule, Sweetheart.
    Just wait till next year.

    ~Cinderella, Princess Who IS NOT So Weak As Her Story May Sound.

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  23. Right, right, right, and you're trying to sound smart because I finally showed up your intellect by going to college. :) No, it doesn't win, not really, judging by the fact that i have two 400+ page books finished and you haven't even finished one. :) JK.

    Tell Heidi that she needs to respond. That's what i meant.

    It and more! I may not have all of the homework, but college students don't do all of the activities that we do! Yes, we have about three hours of free time on weekdays and more on Sundays, but that's it!

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  24. You may have written it, but how long would it take you to READ a 400 page book? Without missing any of it? (Or how about an 800 page one?) Case in point: It took me less time to read your two books than it probably took you to read them. You can't win, sister, you can't win. ;D

    Besides, when did you start them books? At age fourteen? And now you're seventeen? So I've got four years to catch up with YOU.

    Ah HAH! Free time! I see how it is. I shall know how to act.

    ~Cinderella, Called Ella (sometimes. NOT Cindy!).

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  25. Activities? Like, Singing Time? Or snack?

    ~Cinderella, Sister Of An Ugly One.

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  26. I don't know. How long was Raising Dragons? I read it in a day. Of course it takes me longer to write them than it takes you to read them, but that's because I invest all of my sweat, blood, and tears (okay, maybe not blood...but plenty of sweat and more than a few tears...) into them. What did YOU invest? That's what i thought. Nothing but your precious time.

    And did you miss any of it? Did you catch all of the color symbolism which i didn't mean to put in there but then actually did? For an accident, its really very deep. No, seriously.
    Kenzi***

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  27. Raising Dragons is 371 pages long, Dearie, and I read it in two hours the first time.

    Blood? What did you do, get a paper cut? Except you typed it, so maybe... A gigabyte cut? Tears, perhaps, but as for sweat- doesn't your house have air conditioning?

    Darling, my time IS precious, and besides time, I wasted a bunch of thought on that hunk of wood. ;^D

    A ropes course. Quite educational. I did one of those. But then I was 8.

    I won't have time to write you another letter before you leave Taylor, so I have to type something now. Some of it can wait until I talk to you, but there is one thing.

    A much as I wish we could glorify Pennyroyal and use her, it really would not work. A five foot person riding her would look like Burt riding a very large dog. Also she has back trouble, so she could never be used bareback. And you could have trouble with the terrifying cameras because Royal is a little (or rather, majorly extremely) skittish and high strung. I'd love it, but she wouldn't.

    ~Cinderella, The One Princess Who Isn't Afraid Of Mice.

    P.S. Who's a dummy, fool?
    P.P.S. If you are using the word it's as in, It is, then you have to use an apostrophe.

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  28. Trust me, 49 inches is smaller than you would think. And if you were to play Falen, then you on Royal would be like Mary riding Millie May.

    ~Cinderella, Sister Of Anastasia.

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  29. And i wrote NTF in about six months the first time. Let's see you do that. :)

    I said not much blood. Not sweat because of heat, sweat because of suspense!

    Oh, really? And what thought did you waste on it? :)

    And I bet that you failed at the age of 8. That's the only way to explain your epic failure at the age of 13. JK. :)

    So sad, but i understand. I like your letters. :)

    Anyway, i think that i understand what you're saying. That is the one problem, isn't it? In Carina's Blood (a part you haven't read yet,) i describe Falen as being about five-foot-two. Which makes me five inches taller. Oh well...Who would notice? :)We'll just have to find a different horse...(This is still only a dream, you haven't found a Davin yet, have you? :)

    Funny picture, Mary riding Millie Mae. I like your analogies. :)

    P.S.-Who's the fool, dummy? :)

    P.P.S.-Oh no, such a grevious error!:)

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  30. How were you in suspense of what was going to happen to them if you were the one writing the story?

    Plenty, my dear, I hope you haven't forgotten all the helpful advice I've already given.

    As a matter of fact, Girlie, I had to do one rope obstacle about fifteen times because I was on a team with a few kids and a bunch of teenagers. If one person missed everyone had to start over so I would do it then the boy behind me would do it then some teenage girl would miss and I'd have to do it again. They nicknamed me Jane of the Jungle though I was the smallest person on the team. I was cute, too. :^) And I haven't done one since I turned thirteen.

    I don't know another gray horse that's large and I haven't found a Davin either. I don't know a lot of teenage boy. . . besides our homeschool friends there's just Drew Koch and I don't think he would work.

    It's Mae, is it? There are a lot of people name Julia Mae, Clara Mae, etc. in the Zachary Taylor cemetery.

    ~Cinderella, Princes Who Knows A Fool.

    P.S. You calling me a dummy, fool?

    P.P.S It's spelled grievous.

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  31. Boy? Or boys? Ha! I caught another one!

    Good point, actually, i'm not really the one with the story in mind. A lot of times it takes off without me...and i just have to figure out what's going on.

    True, you have been pretty helpful, i'll give ya that. :)

    Oh, so you were that good, where you? What you're really good at is bragging. :) JK. If i had done it, i'd brag about it, to. :)

    No Drew Koch. Absolutely not. I'd stick pins in my eyes before seeing that happen, no offense to him. He's a good LeRoy. I don't know many teenage boys, either, besides the guys here. I did see this really cute guy at the water park the other day, but he didn't look anything like Davin. If you ever find a Davin, which i doubt, feel free to let me know. :)

    Interesting...when were you at the cemetery?

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  32. Oh, so you caught it just thirty minute before i did. Doesn't make a difference. You still did it and is still caught it.

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  33. You said thirty minute, not minutes. HA HA HA! And you didn't put a period after I, not is.

    I was at the cemetery during one of Heidi's rehearsals. There were some really interesting names, like there was one guy named Robley Rex and one named Marion Opie Dragoo. There was a girl named Epsie.

    I am a helpful person! You are right!

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  34. Ha, ha, ha.

    Sounds cool. I love old cemeteries, weird as that sounds.

    Of course!

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  35. Drat. No typos.

    I like old cemeteries, too, but there was one that I thought was really cool in WI, it was just off a little country road and it was an old family cemetery. It didn't even have a sign for it and some of them were really old.

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  36. Email me! Answer the questions!

    Whoops this is still Heidi's account. Well it ain't her!

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  37. Ha ha! No typos! That sounds like a really cool cemetery. Like the one in our neighborhood.

    I answered your questions!

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  38. You have a cemetery in your neighborhood?

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  39. Yeah. Right down the hill. Haven't you ever gone there with us? Some of the graves date back to the 1700's.

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  40. No, I never have. The farthest I ever went besides trick or treating was Mrs. Hale's. And the vacant lot.

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  41. Are you related to anyone in that cemetery?

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  42. No. I don't think so. I'm certain that we've been there on Halloween. Maybe not. We'll have to show you.

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  43. Oh oh wait! I saw it once, two years ago. On halloween. We passed it.

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  44. Gak!That was me too oh my goodness.

    ~Cinderella.

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  45. You'll get it. You know, by now I'm beginning to wonder if you and Heidi still love reading my thoughts. Because they're anything but godly and encouraging. :)

    I caught you, this time. You needed a coma after "too". And a space between the "!" and "T".

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  46. The "!" and THE "T". And yes, I like your thoughts. As well as your cookies.

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  47. COOKIE - A small sweet cake, typically round, flat, and crisp.

    ~Cinderella.

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  48. You do know what a cookie is, right?

    ~Cinderella.

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  49. Yes...but i didn't give you any. I'm at Taylor, remember?

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  50. "I didn't", you mean to say. But you haven't always been at Taylor!

    Besides, by this time you're not at Taylor.

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  51. No, but when did i give you cookies?

    When i wrote my comment i was, however.

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  52. I wrote and I was, not i wrote and i was. And I give, not i give. You have given me cookies at times.

    Nuance.

    ~Cinderella.

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  53. I have? I'm pretty sure that you are in fact the usual cookie giver. The home economics queen of Crestwood, remember? No one else has ever been able to gain that title. :)

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  54. Home Economics Queen? Could you explain? And though I admit I usually am the generous cookie giver, you HAVE given me cookies before.

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  55. Home economics is a class you take in school where you learn baking, and sewing, and woodworking, and everything like that. What i mean is that you aren't domestically challenged at all. You can sew, quilt, cook, bake, garden, and more besides. :)

    Kenzi Melody signing off for the last time until August...:)

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  56. I mean, not i mean. I see.

    What is significant about August?

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  57. That I wasn't e-mailing until now...

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  58. Well yeah... but I hadn't read that email yet. But now you've emailed again.

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  59. True. WHAT ARE YOU DOING RESPONDING TO COMMENTS, WOMAN? DIDN'T YOU HEAR WHAT I SAID AT CHURCH LAST WEEK? START SEWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

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  60. Hey... I just got home from vacation. Be nice and now school starts.

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  61. I don't care. SEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

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  62. Why don't you try it, woman?

    I'm assuming you meant SEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, not SEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1, Miss Bad Typing.

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  63. Right. Whatev. If I could do it myself, I wouldn't be paying you, now would I?

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  64. I'm going to be Ashley and get super mad when you call be dumb names. :) After that I'll tell Alexander that I like him (because that's about the same age difference as I imagine it to be between Ashley and Walter) while we're having a very serious converstion about our "relationship" while on a million-step stairway to hell.

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  65. Paying me! Nobody's paying me.

    Should I email him and say that you plan on having a serious conversation about your relationship?

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  66. I would be if you would sew it. :)

    Definitely not! :)

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  67. And there isn't anything you can do about it...

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  68. Except you know that Walter was fourteen or fifteen.

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  69. Hopefully he's closer to sixteen or else this is getting scarier by the moment. :) Alexander is thirteen. He'll be fourteen when i'm eighteen.

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  70. He wasn't. Not in Enoch's Ghost. He was fifteen then. I counted this. Billy and Bonnie are fourteen in the first book, and they stay that way until Last Of The Nephilim, when they're sixteen, and then it skips four years in the middle of The Bones Of Makaidos (spoiler alert... sorry) so they are twenty at the end of that. And Walter is always the same age as them.
    Then ya'll's ages are almost perfect. >:-)

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  71. True, good point. Wait, so they just sponaneously grow two years by the Last of the Nephilim? (no, not really, I know.) I already know that it skips four years in the middle of The Bones of Makaidos, so don't be bothered by tellling me. I'll have it finished by tomorrow or the day after. :) It is true. When i'm twenty-two i'll think of it. :)

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  72. That would be twenty-three. Ashley was twenty-three, I believe, and Alexander would have to be the one to propose. On top of a greenhouse in winter. All you have to do is keep telling yourself that he's too young until he finally asks you. And he might... should I prompt him?

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  73. Uh...no. Remember, Walter already said that no one else can use the snowman thing (which was unbearably CUTE!). When Alexander proposes to someone (and it WILL NOT be me), he has to be creative himself. :)

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  74. Yeah, there's no snow... but a garden gnome would work fine. That was cute. I have Abigail's email, and she has his, so I could send him a prompt and a link to this page... I think I will.

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  75. You know, a link to this page would work as a prompt... I'll email Abigail right now and ask for his email.

    I'm sure he'd love to see what we've been saying about him.

    Then he would know to propose.

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  76. You know what, you said it WOULD NOT be you, should I tell him you don't like him and would never want to marry him?

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  77. Oh my goodness, do not do it! Do not e-mail him! But yes, I don't want to marry him. At least not now.

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  78. A garden gnome would not be half so cute.

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  79. I think I might, and you can't stop me...
    What about this:
    Dear sir,
    It has come to my attention that a certain Kenzi is in love with you. You should propose now; even though she does not want to marry you (possibly because she may be too old for you), she will still accept. You must propose in a very cute way, and she wishes for you not to use a garden gnome. In case you do not believe me, here is a link to the daylily and rose blog. Find Stretching My Mind And My Heart, click comments, and read. That should be proof enough. Sincerely, anonymous.

    Should I send it?

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  80. Okay, calm yourself, Kenzi, I wouldn't really. :) Besides I can't because I haven't got his email. But, oh, do I ever wish I did...

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  81. Absolutely do not send it! If you do...oh, just wait and see what i would do. :) He doesn't have an e-mail, just his parents, as far as i know. He texts, mostly. :)

    And it's not just because he's too young that I don't want to marry him. I don't want to marry anyone right now, not even the man of my dreams. :) How am I supposed to know what God's plans are or who he wants me to marry? I can't assume anything, but i can say very empathetically that i do not want to get married now. :)

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  82. I could send it to his parents, with a subject line, "For Alexander".

    Oh you wouldn't get to get married now, just get engaged, then you can stay that way for eight years or so and get married at the end of that.

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